Dirty Mouth [edit]...and other things

Mom tells me this morning i have to stop cursing. She wants to have a serious talk with me. This made me chuckle a bit. Things like this really do not help me feel like an adult.

Besides that though....healing has to begin. How can a long 4 day weekend feel so unfulfilled and restless? I just wanna be happy. As well as fulfill my do to list. That would sooo make me feel better.

Yet, procrastination is a bitch. Oh, there it goes again. I guess mom is right. *mentally washes mouth with soap*

:-/

[edit] I couldn't resist. there are so much stuff happening here. A stress we're all feeling yet can't shake it off enough to relax and enjoy the nice weather and time off. At least for me it is so. Even my book didn't have a good ending. I don't know what else to say. So many things going through my head but i don't know how to describe it. Maybe if i list them I'll feel better.

• First, I don't know if my website and name on that thrive website deserves its spot. As small as it is, it bothers me. Now i have to help out people that have seen it and want my help. How?! He seems so much happier and together. Don't know if he really is but he gets things done and so nicely. How do people do it?

• I feel like one of those people who have all the tools and equipment but doesn't know how to use them.

• I'm sick of routine.

• I'm sick of being alone, yet don't know if that's so wise now cuz I'm lazy and selfish.

• I'm lazy or at least don't have motivation to do anything. Why?

• I get sick of the talks around the table. Its just too depressing. Especially when mom or dad have something to say thats very important and it starts with "Don't get angry with me if i say this but...."

• I'm sick of my weight. I'm sick of not lookign the way i'd like.

• My dream hasn't come true. And Neraiza is still sad about everything. I'm tired of listening to new music and people making it but not us.

• Sick of books with love stories in them.

• Sick of people making us feel like we have a problem.

• I'm sick of hate with no meaning or reason from others.

• I'm upset that i can't drive and I'm scared to.

• I'm sick of not being a good listener.

• I'm sick of feeling like this. Period.

Ok, now i should bottle these up and throw them far away off an ocean. I know better than to worry and wonder and find all negativity. Let me just get to work and scratch these off the list.

Lord give me strength and wisdom to change the things i can and accept the things I cannot.