I was happy in California!!!

So yes, a month too late but I have to tell you that i did make it to Cali. and no i didn't meet him. Surprised? No. Of course not. But i got damn close.

So pathetic isn't it?

You should have seen me. Paranoid aint even the word to describe me. Once i got there the first time (yes, i went many times, shut up) I freaked soo bad i couldn't stop screaming! We were in our white PT Cruiser (hahahaha, classic) and i was screaming like someone bit my ass. It was an experience to remember. This was me in Starbucks. *sigh* stupid idiot. Look at her all happy and shit.

The night got better. We walked down the street, me hyperventilating, and at the end of the road, like a bright shining star, there it was. Koo Koo Roo, standing in its neon glory. I almost fell to the ground. So i ran in and ate their chicken. Not bad might i add. But i couldn't stop wondering if he planted his ass on the same seat i was sitting on. I couldn't even order. I just told meli to order for me while i breathed and made sure that at every corner of the joint, Went wasn't hiding in it. Even in the bathroom. Cuz you know, you just never know.

Unfortunately he wasn't hiding. But i did spot a good looking guy that looked just as paranoid as me. Except he was hiding behind his plate as he stuffed his chicken down his throat. He was famous. I know it. It's only a matter of time before i see him on TV somewhere. Then i can say i "met" him.

So we ate and no Went. So we went *nods*...and walked some more and more and more. Nothing. He was hiding i just know it. Took a pic with a shiny pole and smiled doing it. Stupid idiot....just doesn't have a clue.

Next day we went back. I was sad and felt ridiculous. I saw ghetto kids waiting around for something. I knew they were paps. You can tell. It was hilarious and shameful all at the same time. Cuz in reality, i was just like them, i just didn't get thrown out. So i sat there looking out the window, waiting. Nothing. I even made sure i touched the handle well, cuz you know, he touched it many times! No i didn't lick it, i swear. Suddenly the hot guy form last night walks in. He looks at me and stares. Like he knew i was there for something. I think he thought i was stalking him. Little did he know...

He looked cute when was self-conscious and sat precisely in front of me out side the window. So i turned to give him space so he can stuff his food down...again. He stared, i stared. Nothing. He sees a free space beside me inside ST and walks in. Omg hes coming closer! Nope. It was the seat he wanted. Of course. He stared, i stared out the window. Nothing. He leaves, i stare. Never again will i see him. :-/

So i take the shot from above right outside of ST. Hoping meli hurrys up cuz when i look back he was coming again! I stare, he walked away. Nothing. Only this of him from behind me. He kinda looks like superman there huh? Very dreamy. :-)

WENT, I HATE YOU!!!

:-) Anyway, We leave and i'm crushed. I will heal one day.







HOLLYWOOD!! Is just as they say it is. Very surreal. We walked around and saw all the stars (See, even then was thinking of you Went. YOU SUCK!) We ate at the Hollywood kodak theater and walked some more. It's also a bit scary too. Lots of homelessness too. :-/ You don't even see that here a lot. LA is nice, but when you look at the back roads and the real life. its just as depressing in poverty. Lots of ghetto places. Weird how it's the place to fulfill dreams yet a place where dreams are non-exsistante or crushed. (Like mine was. >-| )

JAY LENO SHOW!! We got tickets and actually went to a live taping! We saw David Beckham, hot! And Sherry Shepperd, hilarious! I loved it. But it was VERY rehearsed. Too rehearsed actually. I always thought Jay was corny anyway. But i found myself laughing at everything for no apparent reason. I swear its just being there that excites people. Its not even the jokes. The B-52's preformed (snore) and we tried to get Jay's attention by waving and smiling really big. LOL He told us to "stop it and watch the performance." That was funny. Mom and Neraiza heard my horse laugh. I did it on purpose! ;-)

UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!!! was amazing! Not so many great rides but cool. I almost died in the haunted house and ran out the nearest EXIT. We stayed behind this couple so they can get all the scares first so we wouldn't. LOL i know, evil. But one does what one has to do. At one point a women scared them and i screamed "I SAW YOU!!!" so she didn't bother me lmao! It worked.

This post feels rushed doesn't it? I'm in a hurry i guess and i know I'll never do it.

So we got in the Jurrasic ride and that became a mission till i got this result. HALF OFF PRICE , BABY!! And everyone laughed when they saw it up on the monitors LMAO! The Mummy ride was just as fun. But we ran it soo many times i knew when to dive the bad parts of it. Lift leg here...Cover your ears here... It was genius.

I should frame those.

That day though, i weeped. We had to leave LA to go back to San Diego. Wasn't as fun there but long story short...there was a kid there that hated me and told me so....many times.

I like this pic. :-) and this one :-)

MEXICO!! Is a very scary place. Maybe because we went to the "worst" area as everyone tells us. They kept telling us we should go to the inner areas where it's more...decent? Don't know. But it was very colorful and full of culture. Apparently full of criminals as well. We spoke to a guy with a perfect Californian English accent and we decided to buy ice pop off of him. He said he had tequila ones! lol I didn't dare try it. We were walking any way. *shrug* So Carla was getting very nervous and kept telling us to hurry up and keep walking. When we finally did she breathed a sigh of relief and told us he was probably deported back because he's a criminal. Usually men like that are. Wow.

I bought a small pink guitar and some vases for my room. :-) The whole shopping thing was hilarious. But the girls acted like it was the most natural thing, as if they were in a mall somewhere. I was just a bit freaked out. Not for nothing but we obviously don't look the part there. We screamed TOURIST. But after a while i was just fine. Don't know if it was before or after paying 60 cents to use the bathroom with just a wad of paper toilet....but it sure helped. They hook up their buses in hopes of getting more people to ride in them. I rode in a "playboy" themed one with "Danny" spelled out in the top front. I especially found the marble poles fancy. Also, i never met such gentlemen EVER. As soon as we got in the bus, to of them stood up and eagerly gave up their seats. Men in Boston can sure learn something from them.

The really sad part of it all was actually witnessing people crossing the border. A broken fence lined up down the beach was an obstacle enough to break dreams. I felt like i was in a wake. Families lined the benches watching, waiting and hoping their loved ones down the fence would be able to get through. Not a word or a sound was made. With helicopters and beach patrol it was impossible to cross at daylight. I found myself rooting for one particular young man that crossed at that very moment we were watching. But he was too scared. He came back with a quickness. He looked my age. Two of them were caught far way. They almost made it. At that moment i hated myself for any complaint in my life. Any ungrateful action i acted upon against anything around me. I'm blessed in measures i cannot imagine. Life has to get better. People need to catch a break. I seem to never catch a struggle and i don't notice it. I forget. I have to remember.

So we walked away silently. Pondering on what we just witnessed. This is why we chose to go to the "less" tourist attractive places in Mexico. I wanted to see the reality of it all.

I did something really stupid though. When do i not, really. I was exhausted from walking 8 hours straight and we finally decided to cross back to go home. I never realized how packed with people this place was. People cross everyday to work! That never crossed my mind. The drunk American privileged kids in line made it a worse experience. Booze for less in Mexico why not? *rolls eyes* A loooong line that moved slowly and everyone in it was freaked out. As if they were awaiting their sentencing. Meli told me to take pic of the whole thing. I knew it was weird to do but pushed the thought away because Meli insisted. And since she soo into this stuff i thought i might help her out. This is where it gets stupid....wait for it. So i do so and noticed a cop running and jumping over cement fences screaming at me to stop. I apologize and put my camera in my pocket. All the while my heart is beating a mile a minute. At first i couldn't feel it. I was sure it stopped and all the blood rushed to my head. I freak out with a calm expression. He comes up to me and orders me to take the camera out my pocket and delete the pictures. So i do so and show him while i'm deleting. "See, thats it. I didn't take any more." I was surprised my voice wasn't quivery. He walks away and i say "thanks!" Why the hell did i just say that?! *slaps forehead* I was soooo furious with Meli and Carla i wanted to leave them behind or hurt them. One or the other. I went back in line and i turned back to see wide eyed faces watching the incident. They were sure something happened and were probably shitting bricks cuz they thought they were next. The embarrassment. Ground, swallow me now, please.

I didn't speak the whole way home.

I don't remember what happened those days after but i do know i already wished i was home.
I think this is all of it. Overall, great experience. Thank you Lord we got back home safely!

And Went....I forgive you.