Dream and Reality

Last night i dreamed Russ resigned from work. He found a better job and decided to leave. I was sooo devastated because i didn't want to be left behind. Even in my dream i knew i wanted to leave one day. Get a better job. One where i can feel like Broadstreet again. But better. Where i can be respected and actually be apart of a team...someone. A challenging fun job where i can learn everyday.

So i was freaking out because i thought he was leaving and now i couldn't leave because there wouldn't be anyone left in the Web department. I remember walking him out to the door of EF and wanting so badly to tell him to not go because i wanted to go first. As selfish as it sounds, yes.

I go to work today and during lunch time Ben tells everyone he will be leaving to get his masters in MFA on Graphic design in August. He will no longer be working at EF.

My heart skipped a beat and started to beat 10 miles an hour. It scared the shit out of me. What?! But i wanna leave too!

I see me in him. He knows his shit and deserves a better place than this. I know it. I just didn't know he would be leaving so fast. I guess i was too comfortable. Or getting too comfortable. This is definitely a sign. I have to pray to be able to move on. I have to.

Dream and reality. Ironic isn't it? I'll take this as a sign.